Whole Package

I've been mastering that thing that's available to some people

Bringing their internal worlds outside of themselves.

Have you doom scroll'd/indulged real deeply, eaten an entire package of a snack

mindless shoveling {these are the same to me btw}

THAT is what showing up fully has been- it requires a kind of free without caution approach to existing

I imagine a platter that is empty- awaiting to be filled, and so I show up and I have enough for the platter, I have no lack. I begin to place and then pile all the parts of myself on to this golden platter

The room?

Could be a banquet hall hosting the most elite party of the season, a living room of trusted allies an ice cream parlor, every place I go I add myself to this platter, a lot of myself, all of self

I heard it was necessary to live whole to enjoy life, and here's the thing

As a new way of being it is deathly vulnerable, I gave into cutting myself down over the years therefore THIS feels intense

And I think I know what you're thinking, I'm, we, are not meant to show up and spill out everything

Nah of course not

I am talking about the lil things

The wit, the honest awkwardness, I would have much rather stay quiet

BUT it is day 29

So staying quiet is not on the list of possibilities

To build, One must begin 

And thus far from beginning I realise two things

I wasn't good at cutting myself down, I was experienced, so I can give that up, it's like when you change a career, build a new muscle memory and wahLA

Secondly life expands when people know who I am, they can meet me or they can leave me and both are exactly right when it's deeply rooted in me showing up as the whole package.

“Whole Package” is on Youtube

When you see that, you'll see me and over the course of this 30 day story unfolding, there is more Me to be experienced.

I am a writer, a dream, poet and more.

Tomorrow,

Lisa